I asked, “Do you think you want to go,” and she nodded without looking up. Then she asked, “Do I still get to go,” and that question felt heavier than anything I had carried in months.
I sat beside her and watched her press her crayon hard into the page, and I said, “Do you want to go,” trying to sound steady. She nodded again and said softly, “Maybe Daddy can come, just for a little while,” and I felt something inside me twist because children ask impossible things like they are asking for a glass of water.
A week later at breakfast she circled her spoon through milk and asked, “Do you think Heaven lets people visit if it is important,” and I stood at the sink gripping a mug too tightly. I said, “I think your dad loves you enough to never really leave you,” and I knew that was the kind of answer people give when truth feels too sharp to hold.