“Are you still working those impossible hours?” one of Diane’s friends asked, treating my career like a temporary rebellion.
“Work is busy, but I enjoy it,” I replied, giving the usual answer that supplied no texture for them to weaponize.
Another guest remarked that my apartment must feel awfully large for one person, a comment meant to make my independence look like a lonely failure. I knew the trick was to deprive them of truth so they were forced to settle for clichés.
In my mother’s internal ranking system, Brianna had always been the daughter who could be displayed without alteration. She was beautiful in a way that was rewarded in families preferring softness over scrutiny, possessing a social laugh that could be summoned on command.
Diane liked surfaces that reflected her own narrative back at her, and Brianna was a successful daughter because she was willing to blur her own discomfort. I, on the other hand, had boundaries and a face that betrayed me when I had reached my limit.