I worked as an administrative coordinator for a healthcare nonprofit in Denver. The pay was not glamorous, but it was honest. It covered my rent, my groceries, the occasional dinner out, and sometimes even enough left over to buy myself flowers from the discount bucket at the grocery store because there was something quietly healing about choosing beauty without needing to justify the expense. My apartment had plants on the windowsill I’d managed not to kill, an old wooden bookshelf I’d assembled with an Allen wrench and pure spite, and a coffee mug collection composed almost entirely of gifts from friends who had shown up over the years and stayed after hearing the full story. I had friends who knew what had happened when I was eighteen and did not urge reconciliation as if family estrangement were a personality quirk rather than a survival decision. I had a savings account with enough in it that opening the app did not produce nausea. Most of all, I had peace—thin in places, still requiring maintenance, but real.
Then my grandmother died, and my father said sweetheart like none of the missing years counted.