I had not stayed long after the funeral. I couldn’t afford much unpaid time, and there were bills waiting for me in Denver and a one-bedroom apartment with a leaking faucet and a secondhand couch that, for all its sagging cushions, was mine because I had paid for it myself. That had been the shape of my adult life for ten years: everything modest, everything earned, everything built without asking permission from the man who used to announce that he was teaching me resilience when what he meant was that he preferred obedience.

At twenty-eight I had finally built a life that did not feel like a waiting room.