My heart shattered into a thousand pieces again. I knelt in the puddle of milk, not caring that my pajamas were getting soaked. “Lily, look at me. Look at me.” She looked up, terrified. “It’s just milk,” I said gently. “It’s just spilled milk, my love. It’s okay. We can buy more. We can buy all the milk in the world.”

I grabbed a rag and started cleaning up, playing, making shapes with the spilled milk. “Look, this looks like a rabbit.” Gradually, her breathing calmed. She lowered her hands. And then, she did something she hadn’t done in two years. She laughed. It was a small, rusty laugh, but it was the most beautiful sound in the world. She knelt with me in the puddle of milk and helped me clean it up.

Amanda’s trial was swift. The photos of Lily’s hands were irrefutable proof. She was sentenced to 15 years in prison. I didn’t even go to hear the sentencing. She didn’t matter anymore. She was a ghost.

What mattered was the little girl in front of me.