I could’ve stepped forward, said her name, watched confusion turn into recognition.
I could’ve watched him decide whether to let his daughter meet the grandmother he’d once described as a burden.
Instead, I watched him bend down to listen to whatever Pauline was saying, really listen, his face softening in a way I hadn’t seen since he was small.
“Okay, okay,” he laughed, adjusting the bag on his shoulder. “One more book, then lunch. Deal?”
She nodded vigorously.
Molina glanced in my direction once, eyes sliding past me without stopping.
We were strangers on a sidewalk.
What would you do if the people who hurt you walked right past you looking almost gentle?
I pressed my hand into my pocket, fingers closing around the cool curve of my key.
Not to my old house.
To my current front door.
To the life I’d chosen.
I let them pass.
I didn’t follow.
I went home.
—
The night after seeing them, I told a carefully edited version of the story at group.
“I ran into my son today,” I said. “From a distance.”
“What did you do?” Marsha asked.
“I watched,” I said. “Then I walked away.”
“Do you regret that?” Tanya asked.
I thought about it.