“Family members also do not laugh when one of their own is being humiliated by a child,” I reminded her. She told me that I was being dramatic and that I had always been the most difficult child to understand.
“You were always so self-sufficient that we didn’t think you needed the same kind of warmth as the others,” she said. I realized then that they had used my strength as an excuse to deny me the very things that make a family a home.
I spent the next few days blocking numbers and ignoring emails from various relatives who were suddenly very concerned about my mental health. Paige was the only one who sent a message that didn’t feel like a disguised demand for money.
“I am so sorry for laughing at that table, Jo,” she wrote. “I was a coward and I hate that I didn’t stand up for you when you needed it.”
I thanked her for the apology but I didn’t tell her that I was planning to leave the city for a while. I needed to find a place where nobody knew me as the useful daughter or the quiet sister who worked with computers.