I threw myself into work, took on new projects, mentored younger colleagues, built things that mattered. My team noticed the shift in me before I had fully named it. The focus that had previously had something desperate underneath it acquired a different quality, steadier and less reactive, the focus of someone who is building rather than defending.
I thought sometimes about what lesson I hoped Dylan would carry from all of it. Not that difficult people should be avoided, because they cannot always be avoided. Not that strength means winning, because winning is not always the point. But that you could stand in a room with people who had decided you were nothing, look them in the eye, speak one factual sentence, and walk out with your child and your peace still intact.
That the size of your response does not have to match the size of their noise.
That documentation is quieter than screaming and considerably more powerful.
That the person who holds the deed to the building does not need to raise her voice.