Of course. Of course it is. Legally I am married to the man who courted me, not the man who has slept beside me. Symbolically I have spent three years in a house with both husband and imposter, watched over by a woman who believed her need for control outweighed my right to reality.

Something in me goes very still then, the way the center of a storm is still.

I am done shaking.

“Here is what’s going to happen,” I say.