He hesitates, and because this night has already broken every restraint in me, I snap, “For once in your life, answer me before someone else does.”
His hands shake slightly at his sides. I had noticed that sometimes over breakfast, late at night, when he thought no one was watching. I told myself it was fatigue.
“Worse than three years ago,” he says quietly. “Better than the doctors feared. I can still walk. Still work remotely some of the time. But it’s progressing.”
The cruelty of my own compassion enrages me. Even now, even gutted, some part of me feels sorrow for him. Not enough to forgive. Not even close. But enough to remind me that the world’s ugliest acts are often assembled from fear rather than pure malice, which only makes them harder to process.
Then another thought rises.
“Whose name is on the marriage certificate?”
No one speaks.
I almost do not want the answer. But wanting has become irrelevant tonight.
“Whose name,” I repeat.
Elías says it.
“Adrián’s.”