$620 for the water heater.
$1,100 for property taxes.
$487.36 for utilities.
$2,000 after Melissa’s divorce.
$350 for school clothes.
$148 for a prescription Carol’s insurance had not covered that month.
$900 toward a transmission.
$275 for groceries.
$400 for Christmas.
$1,300 for a funeral.
$96 every month for car insurance that had quietly become permanent.

The numbers stacked into years. The years stacked into a life.

At some point, I stopped needing the calculator because the exact total no longer mattered in the way I had once believed it did. Still, by the time I finished, I had it. Thirty-eight thousand four hundred and twelve dollars. That was the number I could document without digging through old paper files in the attic or counting the cash Daniel had taken from our emergency envelope because his mother “just needed a little to get through the weekend.”

Thirty-eight thousand four hundred and twelve dollars.