I pulled up seven years of transactions first, then nine. I searched for Carol’s name, Melissa’s name, cash transfers, checks, online bill pay. I opened old email threads. I searched my texts for words like rent, electric, can you help, just this once, hate to ask, short this month, emergency. I found venmo notes with cartoon emojis attached to amounts that had once represented the difference between our children taking a vacation or not. I found grocery store receipts where I had covered three households’ worth of food the week before Thanksgiving because Carol said the card she intended to use had “suddenly declined.” I found the recurring insurance payment for Melissa’s car that I had set up six months earlier “temporarily” after her hours were cut and then, because life moved fast and my own capacity had become automatic, never canceled.
The legal pad filled quickly.