I got into the driver’s seat and shut the door. For a moment I just sat there with both hands on the wheel, staring through the windshield at Carol’s hydrangeas drooping in the late June heat. The house was the same ranch-style place it had always been, tan siding, two hanging ferns, an American flag clipped to the porch column, a cracked stepping-stone path leading to the front door. I had parked in that driveway on Thanksgivings and Easter Sundays, on birthdays and cookouts and Christmas Eves when I was still naïve enough to think effort eventually turned into acceptance. I had carried casseroles into that house with both hands. I had wrapped presents in my own living room and loaded them into this very trunk. I had sat at that kitchen table paying their utility bill online while Carol cried into a dish towel and promised she hated having to ask.

And now my son had eaten on the concrete like an afterthought while unused chairs sat inside the house.