I told her that it was not her fault and that the punishment was never really about the words we used or forgot. She dabbed my forehead with a wet cloth while the water smelled like dish soap, and I asked her if the injury looked bad.

She hesitated too long to answer, which told me everything I needed to know about the damage that had been done to my back. My mother kept me home for two weeks and told everyone I had the flu while she changed the bandages and blamed my fighting for making it look worse.

On day twelve, she buttoned my blouse herself and told me to lie and say I fell against a wood stove if anyone at school asked about it. I went to school because being there was better than being alone with them, but I moved like an old woman to avoid the pain.

During gym class, Coach Miller told us we had to change for a fitness test, and I realized I could not take off my shirt without showing the bandages. A girl nearby noticed a yellow stain soaking through the back of my shirt and asked about the smell before the coach came over.

In the nurse’s office, the fabric was peeled away and the nurse sucked in a sharp breath before asking me what had really happened to my back.