I did not decide that day.

People think decisions arrive like lightning. Sometimes they do. More often, they feel like a hand resting on a doorknob for a long time before it finally turns.

I gathered names. Read listings. Looked at comparable sales. Closed the computer. Opened it again. Imagined strangers living in that house.

The thought did not make me sick.

What made me sick was imagining myself returning in August, as Natalie had generously suggested, pretending I was a guest admitted by permission into a house built from my marriage.

Still, I gave her one final chance.

I called her.

“Hey, baby,” I said. “I was thinking I might come up next weekend. Bring some peach jam. The kids always liked it.”

A pause.

Then that voice again. The one that used to say Mama and now sounded like someone managing a scheduling conflict.

“Mom, I told you Mark’s parents are there through the month. It’s just easier if you wait. Maybe August?”

“August,” I repeated.

“Yeah. We’ll figure it out.”

She hung up first.

She always did by then.

June 14 was the voicemail.

June 16, I listed the lake house for sale.