I walked straight to the living room, put myself between Ethan and the bassinet, and held Leo tighter while he cried into my shoulder.
For one strange second, neither of us spoke.
Rain tapped the windows. The kettle clicked in the kitchen. Somewhere above us, a neighbor dragged furniture across the floor.
Then Ethan asked, “How many days old is he?”
“Five.”
His eyes flicked over the room—the bassinet, the formula cans, the folded burp cloths, the stack of hospital papers on the table, the breast pump by the sofa, the pill bottle next to a half-empty mug of tea. Evidence. Signs. Proof of a life I had built without him, even while bleeding and afraid.
He looked back at me.
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
That question almost made me laugh.
I was so tired I could have sat down on the floor and slept there. Instead, I adjusted Leo’s blanket and said, “Tell you for what?”
His jaw tightened. “Don’t do this.”