If Bianca cried, there was a story already forming around me before I opened my mouth.
If Diane wanted “a fresh start,” it meant some remnant of my mother’s life vanished from the house.
I learned quickly that truth had almost no force against performance.
Bianca understood this before I did.
She would come into my room without knocking, sit on the edge of my bed, pick up one of my books, and say in that bright mild voice of hers, “You know, if you were nicer, people might actually want to be around you.”
Or she would glance at me across the dinner table and say, “Dad seems happier now, don’t you think?” with just enough innocence to make any protest sound ungrateful.
Sometimes she didn’t even bother to disguise it.
Once, when we were alone in the laundry room, she leaned against the dryer folding her mother’s blouses and said, “You know this is my house now, right?”
I was sixteen then and still naive enough to answer.
“It’s my father’s house.”
She smiled without humor. “Exactly.”
That was Bianca’s talent. She understood long before the adults admitted it that my father had chosen a new life and that I was the leftover piece that didn’t fit neatly inside the picture.
At first I tried.