One morning in late September, an engraved invitation arrived to James’s engagement dinner at my parents’ brownstone. Tucked inside was a handwritten note from him: It would mean a lot if you could be there, Allison. It’s been too long. My first instinct was to decline. I had deadlines, expansion plans, meetings—plenty of practical reasons to stay away. But saying no felt too easy, too much like another year of distance disguised as peace. I called Meredith. She told me maybe it was time to stop helping their narrative survive. She was right, which irritated me. So I RSVP’d yes and booked the flight.

The night before I left, I stood in front of my closet for too long deciding which version of myself I was willing to wear home. I could have gone in looking expensive enough to make a point. My mother would have noticed every thread. But I didn’t want to walk into that house screaming wealth. So I packed understated things: a beautifully cut black dress, a camel coat, simple jewelry, quiet quality. I booked a room at the Liberty Hotel instead of staying with my parents. Oxygen mattered.

When I stood outside the brownstone at 6:45 that evening, my hand trembled before I rang the bell.