She left at three. Hugged me at the door — short, firm, the kind that says enough now, you’ll be fine — and told me to return the pot next Thursday.
Not a suggestion. A schedule.
That night I stood on the balcony. Los Angeles spread below in ten million lit directions.
James came up behind me. We were quiet in the way we’re quiet when neither of us needs to fill the space.
I keep checking my phone, I said.
For what?
I was waiting for the call from Bartlesville. The voicemail from my father. The text from my mother that said we changed our minds.
I was still waiting for four tickets to Disney World, standing on a balcony in Los Angeles, twenty-seven years later.
I set the phone face-down on the railing.
I’m done building bridges to people who aren’t standing on the other side.
James looked at me.
We’re getting married. I don’t care if nobody from Bartlesville comes. I’m done waiting for them to choose me. I choose us.
He put his arm around me and we stood there, looking at the city that had held me when my family wouldn’t.
For the first time in weeks, I was standing on something that didn’t shake.