Not broadly. Not enough for anyone to accuse her of enjoying it. Just that small, polished smile she wore whenever something had unfolded exactly the way she wanted and she believed no one in the room had the nerve to name it.
The hearing room felt sterile in a way that had nothing to do with the fluorescent lights. It smelled like copier toner, stale paper, and burnt coffee that had been sitting too long on a warming plate. It was the kind of place where grief was expected to behave itself and wait its turn behind procedure.
My father sat beside her with his hands folded neatly on the table, already relaxed. That was the part that stayed with me. Not relief. Certainty. He looked like a man who had walked in already knowing how the day would end.
Their attorney had everything arranged inside a sharp black binder—tabs, notes, polished answers prepared in advance. He barely looked at me.
Across from them, I sat alone.
At my feet was my grandfather’s old canvas overnight bag, the faded green one with frayed corners he used to bring when he visited me in college. He always filled it with things he thought I needed—tools, books, once even a cast-iron skillet wrapped in newspaper.