I went to bu:ry my father… and found my husband’s mistress sitting in the front row, wearing my missing Versace like it belonged to her.

It was midnight blue, the kind of blue that looked black in shadow and almost silver where the light hit the hand-sewn crystals along the neckline. My father had given it to me for my fortieth birthday last fall with a card that said, For the nights when you want to remember that elegance is armor. He’d always written like that—half lawyer, half poet, fully dramatic.

I tore through my closet looking for it the week before the funeral. I checked the garment bags, the cedar chest, even the hall closet where winter coats went to die. I accused the dry cleaner of losing it. I tipped out old shoe boxes and breathed in dust and leather and stale perfume. Nothing.

By the morning of the funeral, I had bigger things to think about than a missing dress. My father was gone. The house was full of casseroles and low voices and the smell of coffee that had been sitting on a burner too long. White lilies lined my kitchen counter, their sweet, rotten smell pushing into every room like grief with petals.

I wore black because black was simple and I did not trust myself with anything delicate.