Check Your Mailbox

My father burned everything I owned the summer I turned nineteen.

Not a few items he could justify as junk. Not a handful of shirts he’d decided I didn’t need. He went through my room methodically, opened every drawer, pulled things off every shelf, and carried armload after armload out to the metal barrel behind our house in Dayton, Ohio, like he was cleaning out a storage unit that had been abandoned by someone with no right to the space. My clothes. My notebooks. The steel-toed work boots I’d bought with roofing money in July. The secondhand laptop I’d saved four months to afford. The coffee mug from the back of my closet that had belonged to my mother, the one I’d kept hidden because I knew he’d make something of it if he saw it. The framed photo from my high school graduation, the one where I’m squinting against the sun and grinning like someone who doesn’t know yet what’s waiting for him.

He set all of it on fire and stood there with his arms crossed, watching it burn like he was doing something righteous.

“This is what happens,” he said, “when you disobey me.”

I stood at the edge of the yard and watched the smoke rise and said nothing.