But its absence leaves bruises nobody else can see.
I saw Daniel once by accident before the divorce was final.
It was early morning at a coffee shop on Northwest Twenty-Third. Pale spring light. Two people in line ahead of me arguing gently about oat milk. A man at the window in bike gear reading permit news on his phone.
Daniel was seated near the back with someone I didn’t know, a lawyer perhaps or an old friend. He looked up when I walked in, and for a moment the room became unbearably small.
Not dramatic.
Just precise.
There are former intimacies that do not vanish. They simply lose jurisdiction.
He nodded once.
I nodded back.
Then I ordered my coffee, took it to the window, opened my laptop, and spent the next two hours reviewing revised site plans for the housing project while rain moved in slow lines down the glass.
I did not feel triumphant.
I did not feel broken.
I felt occupied by my own life again.
In June, the east side project broke ground.