But loving them didn’t mean I had to sacrifice my entire future for them.
I pulled out my phone and opened a rental app.
I had done this before, half‑heartedly, always talking myself out of it because it seemed too risky.
This time felt different.
This time, I was serious.
I scrolled through listings, filtering by price and location. Most places were out of my budget—lofts downtown with exposed brick and floor‑to‑ceiling windows, trendy studios in the Crossroads district.
But there were a few possibilities. Tiny studios in older buildings near campus. Shared apartments with strangers. Places that weren’t perfect but would be mine.
One listing caught my eye.
A small studio in a worn but solid brick building a few blocks from campus, not far from a coffee shop I liked and a bus stop that could take me straight downtown. The rent was manageable if I picked up more hours at work.
The photos showed a cramped but clean space with hardwood floors, a little kitchenette, and a narrow bathroom with old tile. It wasn’t much, but the listing said “available immediately,” and to me, it looked like freedom.
I saved the listing and kept scrolling, but my mind kept coming back to that studio.