Some nights in those first months she still woke from bad dreams. Some afternoons she came home from school quiet and stretched thin from pretending to be normal around people who had no idea how much of her energy now went into healing. We got her a therapist she liked after the first one talked too much about resilience and not enough about grief. We established routines. Homework at the kitchen island. Saturday pancakes. Grocery store on Sundays. She learned where I kept the good tea, the spare chargers, the emergency cash envelope, the flashlight drawer. Ordinary knowledge. Domestic trust.
The protective order changed the sound of my phone.