A psychiatrist later explained that she did not see children as people with inner lives. She saw them as parts of her environment—things to control, correct, and remove when they disrupted order.

Journals found in her apartment proved worse than I expected. They were not diaries. They were logs. Grocery lists. Weather notes. Expense tallies. And between them, entries like:

O broke dish. Repeated defiance. No remorse.

T observed. Good. She must understand consequences.

Another one read:

T cried in basement after thirty-eight minutes. Better. Fear is useful if applied correctly.

And the line that still wakes me in the night:

She will not make the same mistakes her brother made. She will be a good girl. She has no choice.

I took full custody of Lily before the criminal trial even began. The judge said Taylor had not directly participated in the abuse and there was no evidence she knew about the freezer or Owen’s body. Then he said something harder: a parent’s duty is not only to love a child, but to see what is happening to that child, even when seeing requires you to challenge the system that raised you.

Taylor got supervised visitation.