Then I added the part that mattered most. “And no calling for money. No favors. No arrangements.”
A long silence.
“I understand,” she said.
Maybe she did. Maybe she only understood that I would hear the lie now where once I might have begged to believe it.
Either way, it was a boundary, and boundaries are often more useful than apologies.
Six months later, I gave away the apartment.
Not to my mother.
To Aunt Patricia.
I took her there on a rainy afternoon without telling her why we were going. We rode the elevator up to the tenth floor, and she chatted the whole way about a nurse she used to work with in Boston who had remarried badly and then thankfully stopped, and a new soup place near her building, and whether Marcus was ever going to let me repaint the entry hall in our apartment or continue living with beige “like a coward.”
When I unlocked the door, she frowned.
“Thea, whose place is this?”
I led her into the living room. Light poured through the windows in a way that made the hardwood glow. The kitchen had decent storage. The second bedroom overlooked a line of trees and neighboring rooftops. It was not extravagant. It was better than that. It was solid.
Then I put the key in her hand.