A two-bedroom apartment in Manhattan. Quiet building. Good light. Safe neighborhood. Not flashy, not penthouse absurdity, but solid and beautiful and fully paid for. Worth about four hundred fifty thousand dollars.
I had purchased it as an investment first. Then, when the invitation came, I had another thought.
What if my mother had changed?
What if age and disappointment and the erosion of her own myths had left room for truth? What if beneath all those years of calculation there was still some small usable core of regret? What if the invitation was clumsy but sincere? What if she needed a place to begin again and I, against every sane instinct, wanted to offer her that chance?
“It’s not about what they deserve,” I told Marcus, smoothing the ribbon flat. “It’s about who I want to be.”
He leaned on the table and studied me the way he always did when deciding whether to protect me from myself or trust me through a risk.
“And if she hasn’t changed?”
I slipped a copy of my father’s letter into my clutch. Then the passbook records. Then the property paperwork.
“Then I’ll know.”
The country club glowed that night like a shrine to tasteful denial.