We crawled through the city as if every red light had been placed there personally to insult me. I kept calling my mother. No answer. My father. Nothing. Megan. Ringing. Ringing. Ringing. Outside, people walked with iced coffees, laughed outside restaurants, argued over parking spots, carried shopping bags. The normalcy of it felt obscene.
At the hospital, the doors slid open with a soft whisper that made me want to scream. Inside, everything was too bright, too clean, too controlled. The air smelled like disinfectant and weak coffee. People moved briskly, speaking in low tones. A child with a bandaged wrist sat near the entrance eating a popsicle like hospitals were ordinary.
At the front desk, I barely recognized my own voice.
“I’m Rachel Bennett. My daughter, Ellie—I was told she was brought here.”
The receptionist looked at her screen and then at me with that practiced, professional compassion that somehow feels both kind and unbearable.
“Yes, Ms. Bennett. She’s here. She’s stable.”
That word again.
“She’s in Pediatrics. A nurse will come speak with you.”
“I need to see her.”
“I understand. I just need your ID and these forms.”