When we married, I was thirty and still trying to believe that love did not always need translation into practical compromises. I had recently started showing my work in smaller galleries downtown. I sold enough to cover supplies and part of the rent on the Chelsea loft I was sharing with a friend. I taught workshops three afternoons a week. I had a thin little life, but it was mine, and it fit around my body like a second skin.
Keith stepped into it like a benefactor who had no intention of ever being called that.
He wanted us to move uptown, he said, because his place had more light. He wanted me to focus on my art and not waste myself commuting to workshops for such little money. He insisted on paying the rent because, in his words, “What is the point of two adults pretending poverty separately when they could be comfortable together?” He took me to dinners where people knew his name and started introducing me as his fiancée so early and so often that by the time he officially proposed, half the city we moved through behaved as if the question had already been answered.
I said yes because I thought choosing him was the same thing as being chosen well.