That, more than anything, did it. The act. The shame-colored voice. The pretense that he understood sacrifice because he had learned to mimic its silhouette.
“Why can’t Mom help?”
He laughed once, bitter. “Mom has eight thousand in a money market and three hundred thousand opinions. She says this is the kind of thing siblings do.”
That night I didn’t sleep. I ran budgets until dawn. I opened and closed my banking apps. I walked barefoot over the cold wood floor of my apartment while rain ticked at the windows.
At 4:12 a.m., I made a spreadsheet called WEDDING BRIDGE.
At 8:03 a.m., I sent Ethan a text: I can cover some of it. Under conditions.
He showed up with pastries and a hug I didn’t want.
The conditions got blurrier over time. Of course they did. A little more here. An advance there. One vendor card charged to “keep things moving.” Then another. Then the florist lost imported ranunculus in a shipping issue and needed replacement funds. Then the rehearsal dinner menu had to change because Camille’s mother suddenly decided burrata was “too provincial.” Then a planner quit and somehow I became the planner without the title.