I even sold the collection of vintage watches that Russell had spent years curating for our grandsons. I took on more tutoring students and stopped spending money on any small luxuries for myself.

Audrey sent me polite messages thanking me for the support and telling me how excited the boys were for the beach. “We truly appreciate everything you are doing to make this dream come true, mother in law,” she wrote.

I booked a massive beachfront villa and paid for the first class plane tickets and a private sunset cruise. I even put together gift bags for Parker and Cooper that were filled with new goggles and small toys.

The night before the flight, Douglas called me at seven o’clock in the evening with a voice that sounded very flat. “Mom, can we talk about the plans for tomorrow?” he asked.

“Did something happen to cancel the trip?” I asked as a strange coldness started to settle in my chest. “Everything is still moving forward, but Audrey and I think it would be best if this trip was just for our immediate family,” he said.