On Christmas Eve, an email arrived from Sarah. No subject line. No attachment. Just five sentences that read like someone had finally found the right page in the manual.

I won’t show up at your door again. I won’t ask you for money. I will send pictures once a month unless you tell me to stop. I started a savings account for him. I put your name on it as a beneficiary.

I typed three words and hit send before I could overthink them. Thank you, Sarah.

That night, I set a single place at my kitchen island, lit a candle, and ate takeout pad thai in fuzzy socks while Bing Crosby hummed from a radio that had belonged to James. I didn’t turn it off. I didn’t feel haunted. I felt human.

In January, I stood in a classroom at a community college in Dorchester and watched the first recipient of the Parker-Wilson Grant accept her certificate. Her name was Alana. She had two kids and a smile that could light a stadium. “I’m going to be a sonographer,” she told me afterward, trembling with joy. “I’m going to help women see their babies.” I hugged her without asking and cried in the parking lot where no one could see me, because sometimes happiness roughs you up on its way in.