We chose an upscale restaurant in Boston, one known for its polished service and carefully curated elegance. The white tablecloths were immaculate, the lighting warm yet sharp enough to reveal every expression, and the staff moved with the practiced restraint of people trained to disappear into the background. Everything looked perfect in a way that now feels almost unsettling.

My husband, Harold Bennett, smiled throughout the evening, though something about it unsettled me. It was not the relaxed smile I had known for decades, but a controlled one, rehearsed and stiff, like the smile of someone waiting for a cue to deliver a speech they had practiced alone.