And strangely, that truth felt freeing.
I searched scholarship databases until sunrise. Most opportunities seemed designed for students with polished resumes, mentors, and time. Still, I bookmarked everything.
One in particular caught my attention: Silver Lake State’s merit scholarship for independent students. Full tuition. Only a few students chosen each year.
The odds were terrible.
I saved it anyway.
Then I found another program—a national fellowship that selected just twenty students across the country.
I almost laughed out loud.
Twenty.
Still, I bookmarked that one too. Because sometimes belief begins before confidence does.
The rest of that summer unfolded in two completely different worlds under the same roof. Downstairs, my parents helped Sadie order bedding, furniture, and travel outfits for Ashford Heights. Boxes filled the hallway. Excitement followed her through every room.
Upstairs, I researched housing, jobs, and class schedules. I built a future so quietly that no one seemed to notice it was happening.