My father did not ask many questions about my work. Whether from pride, discomfort, or simple habit, I never fully knew. He occasionally sent articles about the market with no note attached. Once, after a dinner where Vanessa had laughed about my “romantic relationship with Excel,” he walked me to my car and said, awkwardly, “Your mother would have liked that you built something.” I nearly burst into tears at the stop sign three blocks later because it was the closest he had come in years to seeing me clearly without Vanessa translating the view.
By March 2025, I had enough money to do the one thing my mother never got to do.
Buy a house by the ocean.
Not because an ocean house had been her lifelong dream exactly, but because she used to cut out pictures of coastal homes from magazines and tape them inside the pantry door as a joke when winter in Connecticut felt endless. “When your father becomes civilized and retires near saltwater,” she’d say, and we’d laugh because my father hated sand in the car and distrusted West Coast time zones. But she loved the idea of light. Of open sky. Of a place where nobody closed curtains too early.