“What if you make him madder by staying quiet and he thinks he can do this whenever he wants?” I countered.
She exhaled, shaky.
“Can you…come with me?” she asked.
“To court?”
She nodded.
“I can,” I said. “I will.”
That was how I ended up sitting on a wooden bench in district court two days later, my hands folded around a Styrofoam cup of coffee, Tanya trembling at my side.
We watched other cases go before the judge—neighbors over noise complaints, a landlord trying to evict a tenant, a woman with a black eye asking for exactly what Tanya was about to ask for.
When Tanya’s name was called, she stood on legs that didn’t look entirely steady.
“I’m right here,” I murmured.
She walked to the front, voice small but clear.
When it was over, when the judge granted the order and the papers were in her hand, she sat back down next to me and let out a breath that sounded ten years old.
“I thought I’d feel like I betrayed him,” she said. “Instead I just feel…tired.”
“Tired is honest,” I said. “Honest is a good place to start.”
Have you ever mistaken fear for loyalty because you were too tired to call it what it was?
On the way out, Officer Miles caught my eye.