“I used to think walking away was the same as giving up,” I say, sitting at the scarred kitchen table while someone stirs macaroni on the stove. “Turns out, sometimes it’s just finally walking toward yourself.”
The young moms nod, or roll their eyes, or ask questions.
“Don’t you miss him?” one of them asked me once.
“Yes,” I said. “I miss the boy who used to jump into leaf piles and track mud into my kitchen. I don’t miss the man who called me a burden.”
“What if he changes?” another asked.
“If he changes,” I said, “he knows where I am. My door isn’t locked. But I’m not giving him the key again.”
They laughed at that.
The joke wasn’t really a joke.
It was a boundary in disguise.
The key to that old house sat in Joanna’s office, taped to the original deed in a file marked CLOSED.
The key to my new life fit a different door.
I wore it on a simple ring in my pocket.
Some days, when I headed out into the crisp air, I’d slide my hand in, feel the small, cool weight of it against my palm, and remember the note on the counter.
Surprise.
A burden did this.