Different door colors, different landscaping choices.

When I reached my old address, I stopped across the street.

Someone had painted the front door a deep red. The porch had new furniture—a pair of wicker chairs with bright cushions and a small table between them. A child’s scooter leaned against the railing.

In the yard, under the oak tree, a little boy in a striped shirt was jumping into a pile of leaves while a man raked them higher.

“Again!” the boy shouted.

The man laughed, tossed another armload of leaves onto the pile.

Paul had done that with Caleb once.

Once upon a time, I thought those kinds of memories were tied to the house—that if I let go of the building, I’d lose the stories.

Standing there on the sidewalk, I realized I’d been wrong about that, too.

The memories lived in me.

Not in drywall and trim.

I watched for another minute as the boy threw himself into the leaves, leaves flew up, shrieks of laughter cut through the street.

Then I turned and walked away.

No one looked out the window.

No one saw me.

That felt right.

Caleb called once more that winter.

Blocked number, but his voice came through before I could hang up.

“Mom,” he said. “We had the baby.”