I walked down the narrow hallway of our small house outside Dayton, Ohio, closed the bedroom door as gently as if a child were sleeping inside, and lay down fully dressed on my side of the bed.
The bedside lamp cast a soft circle of light over our wedding photo, my reading glasses, and a library book I had forgotten to return. The heater groaned to life. Somewhere outside, a dog barked and a car door shut.
Ordinary sounds.
On a night that changed everything.
My cheek throbbed where his hand had landed. It wasn’t the first time. It wasn’t even the worst time. That was what terrified me most. It had become something that “just happened” in our house. Like a leaking pipe. Like a sticking window.
At first, his apologies had sounded sincere.
“I’m sorry.”
“I lost control.”
“You know I love you.”
Later, they sounded different.
“You push me.”
“I’m under a lot of pressure.”
“Anyone would’ve reacted.”
That night, he didn’t apologize immediately.