Despite all that Connor never asked for money or gifts and he behaved like someone who wanted nothing except my happiness. He cooked most of our meals, kept the house spotless, and often gave me long shoulder massages when my back stiffened in the evenings.

He liked calling me his wife or sometimes his little lady in a voice so warm that it made me believe I had been given a second chance at tenderness.

Every night before bedtime he brought me a glass of warm water sweetened with honey and chamomile tea.

“Drink every drop, sweetheart,” he would whisper while handing me the glass. “It helps you sleep peacefully and I cannot relax unless I know you are resting well.”

I trusted him completely and I drank it every night for six years.

During those years I believed I had discovered a peaceful version of love that required no struggle and asked nothing in return.

One evening Connor mentioned that he planned to stay awake late in the kitchen because he wanted to prepare a special herbal dessert for several yoga colleagues who would visit the studio the next morning.

“Go ahead and sleep early tonight, sweetheart,” he told me while gently kissing my forehead.