My husband had spent years warning me never to set foot on that farm. So after he passed away and the lawyer handed me the key, saying that from now on the place belonged to me, I was ready to sell it right away and put everything behind me. But before making my final decision, I still wanted to see it once for myself. When the door opened, I finally understood why, all those years, he had never wanted me to set foot there.

There is no graceful sentence for that. The word felt too old and too theatrical all at once, as if it belonged to women in black crepe or old novels with stone houses and candlelit staircases. It did not feel like me, standing in the fluorescent aisles of Lunds & Byerlys wondering whether one woman really needed to buy a whole loaf of bread. It did not feel like me, a high school English teacher with grading still piled on the kitchen table and a daughter who had not yet decided whether grief would make her softer or sharper.

Jenna chose sharp.

She was twenty-seven, living in Minneapolis, smart as a whip and angry in the clean, polished way of young women who are used to having explanations. Grief offended her. It offended her that death could be random. It offended her that her father, the calmest man she had ever known, could leave a vacuum no logic could fill. She moved through the funeral like a woman standing in a courtroom she had not agreed to enter, accepting condolences with her mouth but not with her eyes. By the time the casseroles started coming, her sorrow had already begun hardening into something more dangerous: indignation.