Those were the words Calvin Whitaker said without even lifting his eyes from the glowing screen of his phone. He spoke as casually as if he were commenting on the weather or asking me to pass the salt, yet the sentence landed heavily in the quiet kitchen of our townhouse in Chicago, Illinois. I was standing near the stove wearing an oversized T shirt and lounge shorts while spreading strawberry jam across a warm bread roll, and the coffee pot in my hand trembled slightly as I tried to understand what he had just said.

For a brief moment I imagined throwing the freshly brewed coffee straight into his smug face. Another part of me wanted to walk out the door, slam it hard enough to shake the walls, and never look back. Instead I stood still, inhaled slowly, and surprised even myself with the calmness of my voice.

“Please repeat that,” I said quietly.

Calvin sighed and finally looked up, clearly irritated that I had interrupted whatever he was scrolling through on his phone.