In those nine days, Gerald came every morning with coffee he never drank and a book he never opened. He sat beside me while nurses checked my incision, while doctors changed antibiotics, while my body relearned the complicated work of staying alive.
He did not ask me to call him Dad.
He did not ask me to forgive him for something he had not done.
He told me stories instead.
He told me about the red pickup truck in the photograph, how it used to stall at every intersection unless he tapped the dashboard twice. He told me about the little house by the lake that he and my mother almost rented. He told me that he once bought a yellow crib from a yard sale and hid it in his friend’s garage because he wanted to surprise her.
“What happened to it?” I asked one afternoon.
Gerald looked out the window.
“I kept it for two years after she said you died. Then I gave it to a shelter.”
My chest hurt in a place surgery had not touched.
He told me he had never married.
“Not because I was noble,” he said. “Don’t make me better than I was. I got bitter for a while. Angry. Drank too much for a few years. Then my sister Ruth grabbed me by the collar one Thanksgiving and told me grief was not a profession.”