Ashley keeps her eyes lowered. Her cardigan is cream cashmere, the expensive kind that pills if you breathe on it wrong. I know the exact kind because three years ago I paid for it—or rather, I paid into the private “professional attire assistance” fund that somehow found its way to the school district foundation Ashley had conveniently joined as a board volunteer six months before she applied for classroom grants. She never knew the money came from me. She wore the cardigans anyway. She accepted the version of reality that flattered her.
That has always been Ashley’s particular genius.
Mine was leaving.
Or that is how Robert tells it.
In his version, I ran away. I abandoned the family land, abandoned my obligations, abandoned my mother, abandoned everything real for a vague office job in Washington no one could verify because there was nothing worth verifying. In his version, Ashley stayed. Ashley cared. Ashley understood duty. Ashley did not think she was better than the county that raised her.
In my version, I left because I was smart enough to understand that staying would mean shrinking until there was nothing left but usefulness.