He tried to work. He opened his laptop and read 3 emails and understood none of them. He picked up a report and read the same paragraph 4 times. He put it down. He picked up his pen, held it, put it down.
Through the closed study door, he could hear the quiet sounds of the house beginning its day: the kettle, the soft click of cabinet doors, footsteps light and measured moving between the kitchen and the dining room. Ordinary sounds. The sounds of every morning for the past 2 weeks.
He pressed his fingers against his temples and stared at his desk.
He needed to be sure. That was the thing. He was a man who had built his entire life on certainty, on facts, figures, documents, proof. He did not make decisions based on feelings and old letters and the observations of a jet-lagged friend. He made decisions based on evidence.
He needed evidence.
But how do you ask a person something like that? How do you sit across from someone who makes your breakfast every morning and say, What exactly?
He did not know yet.
So he let the morning pass.