My daughter Laura’s funeral was the bleakest day of my life.
The church was packed—coworkers, neighbors, distant relatives, and strangers whose faces I barely knew, all gathered to mourn her. White and blush flowers crowded the altar, their sweet scent heavy in the warm air. Candles trembled in tall brass holders, throwing unsteady light across the ancient stone walls. Somewhere behind it all, the organ played a slow funeral hymn I had heard too many times before.
And still, in the middle of all those people, I had never felt so alone.
I stood a short distance from the closed casket, my hands hanging uselessly by my sides. I stared at the polished wood as though looking hard enough might somehow make it open, might let me hear her voice one last time. Just once. Long enough for her to tell me, “Dad, it’s okay. I’m fine. There’s been some mistake.”
But coffins don’t make mistakes, and death doesn’t bargain.
