On the back of that photograph, it said Brian, age 40, still alone.
I stared at the picture for a long time.
He looked like her.
He had Brenda’s eyes, her nose, her smile. I had looked at my wife’s face every day for 37 years.
And now I was looking at a stranger who had her face too.
I set the photograph down and picked up the journal again.
There was one more page.
One final entry.
Paul, she wrote, if you are reading this, then I am gone. And I am so, so sorry. I am sorry for lying to you. I am sorry for keeping this from you. But I need you to do something for me. Please, Paul, find him. Find Brian. Give him the family I never could. He deserves a chance. He deserves to know he was loved. Please do this for me. Do this for him.
I closed the journal and set it down on the desk.
I leaned back against the wall and closed my eyes. My mind was spinning. My heart was breaking.
Brenda had a son.
A son she had never told me about.
A son who had spent his entire life alone, thinking no one cared about him.
A son who was out there right now, two hundred miles away, living in a one-bedroom apartment above a hardware store, carving pieces of wood and wondering why his life had turned out this way.