She wrote that she wanted to “explain.” She wrote that she’d been “misguided.” She wrote that she was “sorry” and that she “deserved forgiveness.”

I read it once and set it down.

I didn’t feel rage. I didn’t feel pity. I felt nothing that would move my hands toward a pen.

Maybe someday forgiveness will mean something to me. Maybe it won’t. But I do know this: forgiveness is not a debt survivors owe to the people who tried to destroy them. It’s a choice, and choices are sacred after someone tries to take yours away.

I tore the letter in half and threw it away.

Then I walked outside onto the deck, breathed in cold ocean air, and listened to the city in the distance. Vancouver kept living. Boats moved across the dark water like slow, steady lights.

Sophie once asked me if I was afraid to go home now.

I told her the truth: “Home isn’t the house,” I said. “Home is the people who keep you safe.”

Margaret tried to make my home a place where I died.

Instead, Sophie turned it into the place where I learned how to live again.