I knew he would come home that evening assuming the party had been awkward and that I was upset. I knew he would walk in prepared to soothe, not to reckon. He would probably start by saying, “Tell me what happened,” in that careful voice people use when they suspect the truth may require them to choose a side. And I knew, with a certainty that felt almost holy, that I was done helping him stay neutral in situations where neutrality had become betrayal.
Upstairs, I could hear Lily running bathwater. Noah was in his room with the door half-open, humming absently as he lined up toy cars along the windowsill. Their resilience should have comforted me. Instead it made me furious in a new way, because children are resilient far too often in circumstances where they should simply be protected.